my absence

i have been gone for sometime here, laptop was in shop. and life has been getting in the way as well as self pity and loathing.i guess that i am entering that part of my cylcle where i despise myself again. i haven't felt like anything i have to say is worth writing down. i have been reading some of the blogs that i follow mostly private. good news is that the girl that made me want to write a blog has updated hers. maybe this will inspire me to write again in some regular fashion. look her up  mind junk 101.